Now, I am 29 years old.

Alright, before I am going to highlight anything what happened to my life this year. Let me be frank and honest as to how I made this entry... In one of my previous posts, I made an impromptu note to myself to write three things about my holidays, my Year-End Report, and my birthday. I also made half-baked resolution to plan what I will have to say for today. Well, it's my 29th year already starting... ehem!... today, and to be honest, there is a plan, yes, but it's not that I am going to pre-compose the actual words I am supposed to key in for tonight. The plan is now an outline, and I am sorry to those whom I have given a wrong impression as it was originally preconceived to produce the actual composition itself at first.

But ok anyway as I had mentioned earlier, there are many things that I would like to divulge here. But for confidentiality reasons so as this time not to hurt the persons involved, I will not mention the actual circumstances. Those were quite the gray phases in my Christian life as I had been "caught in the middle" between the backslider I was and the man more of His character God wants me to be. (Or us, for that matter.)

For the past 28th year, I was not the backslider that I used to be as, just an example of many other things, I had been re-upholding the vows to go back being chaste again. Quite admitting, I may not be a virgin anymore because of my "misadventures" from the previous years. But I have not touched a flesh again since I became rededicated.

Then again of course, that does not mean I was or will be invulnerable to temptations. As much as I had not succumbed physically -- alright, not yet but praying for His strength to will not -- I have to admit that there were "episodes" of compromise existing at my realms of thought. (I am not going to expound what I meant by that as I am assuming the readers are mature enough to understand what I meant. And also so that I will not entertain un-Christian thoughts to those who are prone to what I had undergone.) This may be a small thing compared to those of my former years, and I may be categorized as just like having the thought of an average guy still chaste enough not to have touched again, but occasionally reading this link would have me sometimes think otherwise.

I may not (yet) be the man God wants me to be at the moment, but I know He is still at work in me. Just like those proverbial phrases about attempting on something to grow up overnight, having a Christ-like character is not an instant milestone, but a character work in progress with God's provision and with the person himself willing to let God do His thing. So in leiu of these things now that I am 29 years old, I am praying for more of this character for the rest of my year and beyond.