Hit by another crossroad

Yesterday I was into two meetings, with both made me stand on a brand-new crossroad.

Yesterday morning first. At around 2 months ago I was referred by my pastor regarding ... um, something that I cannot mentioned yet. (By the way, I will be cryptic for the rest of this blog entry. Last time I did this was when I created my first blog I had used to deliberately hurt people back when I was a backslider. This time I foresee the potential for some people to get hurt. Just to let everyone know that this is not my intention as I will remain respectful to people that could get hit, and I would apologize in advance for this.) Last Thursday my pastor arranged a meeting with a certain brother in church. Yesterday morning was our date at a local coffee shop.

I have been briefed before with the concern, the reason for the meeting, by my pastor. But when our conversation with this brother continued, I was overwhelmed with what really was happening at his place. With those revelations, I have been thinking of the how's and the why's those happened, but most especially on what I could offer to help.

After the meeting that morning, I went to the next meeting in my day's event list, did some arrangements and stuff. At some point in time, a bittersweet scene happened. It hurt me deep as I have plans I have yet to execute but wouldn't, because I have been making sure I have the coasts cleared. Unfortunately, my haunch turned true...

I was in emotional pain the whole time since that meeting started. I kept reminding myself I could be happy for them, and currently I continue to ask for God's strength so that I really could, as I have decidedly chosen to continue building them up despite this.

Overall, I know He will never leave me despite these times. I will trust on Him to guide me what I will do out from these two meetings yesterday.